“The most wonderful of all things in life, I believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom one’s relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of Divine accident.”
-Sir Hugh Walpole

I used to not believe in the whole soul mate thing. Not that I was a cynic, not even an extreme realist, I was just trying to have some sort of grasp on reality. The world is full of millions of people, and you want to tell me that I am only, truly meant for one person on the entire planet?? Not only is that unrealistic, but its sort of terrifying if you really think about it. What if they find someone else? What if you never cross paths? What if they die? One decision can alter our entire course. Thus, I had concluded that this whole soul mate concept was nothing more than over-romanticizing, wishful and unrealistic thinking. Then I fell in love. I mean deeply in love, to the point of marriage.Though I still don’t believe in the concept of soul mates in the sense as many people do, the thought of spending forever with this person becomes increasingly more and more ideal. I still recognize that if our choices had taken either one of us on a different route, we could definitely be happy, even without knowing each other, and as painful as it may be to think, we could be happy with other people. However, we have found each other and fallen in love, and so here we are, together and preparing to embark on an eternal commitment, where are souls’ journeys will be forever more intertwined with one another. Our minds, our body’s, our hearts, and our spirits, will be forever more connected with one another, in a bonding love that is both unconditional and timeless. Now after I had discovered this, I had to take another look at my disbelief of soul mates. For if my new found understanding is truth, and I do believe that it is, then is that not exactly what a soul mate irrevocably must be? This person to whom you are bonded to, in a love that never ends, but surpasses this physical world, for something entirely spiritual, and eternal? It must be. And so, though he may not exactly be my ‘soul mate’ yet, on the day in which we commit ourselves to one another, for time and all eternity, and make covenants to both each other, and to God, to always love, cherish and uphold one another, to be faithful, true and full of love, kindness and forgiveness, for the rest of our existence, I do believe we will in turn, become each others’ soul mates, if you will. And in this new,  never ending bond with one another, we will grow and flourish together, our souls’ becoming one, as our hearts and minds are aligned in a common pathway, a common goal, to uplift each other, to better each other, to allow one another to soar, to grow, to blossom; and to look pass our differences and flaws, in order to unconditionally love and support one another, selflessly, fully, exponentially, and divinely. 

Not even being dramatic. I literally miss Ireland so much sometimes that it causes my heart to ache. You know when you get broken up with by your bf/gf and you have terrible, looming, nostalgic waves of sadness beyond your control, that can literally make you feel physically sick? Or when you leave someone behind as you have to move away and it’s like there’s a missing piece of your soul out there, that you had to leave but you can never forget, and you’ll never feel completely “whole” without being reunited again. That’s how I feel! But unlike these scenarios, in which time usually, gradually heals the pain and your memory fades, my memory is ever vibrant with my holiday there just last May, and my soul ever aches to return. The rolling fields of green, the wildflowers spontaneously sprigging up, the mysterious forests, the quaint shops and hearty pubs, the fences made of stone, the crashing, wild sea, the timeless castles, the little cottages, the dart, the hustle and bustle of Graffton Street, the European shopping and fashion, the upbeat dancing, the catchy music, the people with their Irish accents and Gaelic signs; the magic the just hangs in the air, that you can feel everywhere you go, in everything you do, surrounding you, enveloping you… There is no where in the world that compares. I’m quite seriously in love with Ireland. I miss it every single day and I cannot wait for the day I return. My heart yearns for it.

“My first thought when I came here was that I understood why there are so many great Irish writers - because there is something mystical in the air. There’s always this cloudy, moody sky and it’s challenging.”  -Christopher Meloni 

I’m so motivated right now. With everything. I want to be the BEST I can be. Not just spiritually, but emotionally, physically, academically… in every way possible. I want to reach my full potential. I want to be organized. I want to feel that my life has meaning and purpose. I want to make a difference in the lives of others. I want to feel good about myself, the way I look, what I’m doing, how I’m spending my time. I never want another minute to be wasted. I’m really excited. I’m so ready to make positive changes in my life and to utilize my time to better myself, to lift others up, and to show the ones that I love most how important they are to me. Life is much too short to not be living it to the fullest :) 

seriously. I’m in love with being in love. (:

“I have the simplest tastes. I am always satisfied with the best.” -Oscar Wilde. :)) 

Oh If you want me then you can have me.
take me, oh baby grab me. 
‘Cause if you want me then you can have me.

‘Cause you’re not just anyone, 
You’re a ladder to the sun. <3

“sometimes you will never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory”.

I’m so thankful for my friends. 

“I’m a free-spirit, a gypsy, a wanderer of the universe. I’ve got no place of my own, just living for the moment and hoping for the best to come my way.”